if i could dream at all, it would be about you

Those days

2012-01-11T23:43:00.001+08:00

I really wan to rewind back time.
To 10 March 2010.

2012-01-05T11:02:00.003+08:00

haha my 2012 countdown post came 5 days late!
but well, late then never. haha

so darling me muhd renhui and tracy had an awesome and special countdown this year on Marina Reservoir.

all thanks to Renhui that we get to sit on the WWS boat to watch the fireworks without having to squeeze with people. =)

it's feel so shiok that we are on a boat in the middle of the marina waters. haha and people must be wondering wah so good can sit boat dont need squeeze with people!

so here are some lovely photos to share on my dead blog haha!

Muhd the always ready to be photographer

that's our driver. and that's tracy and renhui. AHEM

and that's me with darling

and so. the 8 min fireworks start!

AND MAY WE HAVE A LOVLIER 2012 =)

2011-12-29T12:54:00.002+08:00

2011 is coming to an end soon!
2011 really gone quite fast. i guess it was because of school. makes time passed faster.
it's good because im already halfway thru school. yeah i cant wait to get out of there.
so what have i achieved this year.
nothing much i guess.
sometimes i feel like i live my days without much purpose.
i guess the main purpose is to study hard do well for exams.
and i did prove myself right that i can do it, like finally.
really mundane life uh.

what i hope to achieve next year?
i hope i can go Korea for my exchange in June.
I hope i can do well for my attachment.

uh nothing to write anymore. my mind is blank.

2011-12-22T14:26:00.002+08:00

WEEEE I FINALLY FINALLY FINALLY FEEL THAT IM NOT THAT HOPELESS AFTERALL.

my efforts did paid off this semester.
so happy to see such a drastic improvements in my results.
from previous sem of 2.76 to 3.19 now.
from all the Cs to no more Cs now.
even had my FIRST A in uni. haha.
SOlid Waste. hahaha i know. stop laughing.

haha.
it has been a tough route for me. to come this far.
i hope i can maintain.

2011-12-22T14:20:00.000+08:00

2011-12-16T19:14:00.004+08:00

Tried this Cowboy's Tavern at AMK Ave 10!
haha all the main course at $9.90.
then free flow of Drinks, Soups, Ice Cream and Garlic Bread at $4.80.
so whole meal about $15.
haha! take bus 88 from AMK station. dropped at the 3rd stop! and walk to Blk 529.

this is my ribeye! okay la look quite small.

so after that we head on to Botanical Gardens.
at night go Botanical Gardens do what leh?
Xmas lightings on trees la! hahaha

pretty lightings!

HAHA! some cam whore sessions

big big sunflower!

very colourful!

super big grasshopper!

so bright and beautiful!

haha this xmas tree very interesting! many different characters! =)

2011-12-06T20:38:00.002+08:00

ah. my blog is collecting dust.
really no time to update till now.
or rather nth much to update nowadays.

Christmas is coming! New Year! Chinese New Year! MY BIRTHDAY! Valentine's Day!
wah season of getting fat!
finally my appetite is back to normal.
no more nausea (okay im not pregnant) whenjust i smell or eat food.
just signed up for Kbox membership card.
just $10 and according to Shuhuan there are quite good benefits being one.

ah really dunno what to update now.
no pictures for me to post.

listening to 那些年 and 人海中遇见你

the first korean album i bought online. LEE SEUNG GI'S TONIGHT!

LEE SEUNGGI

2011-09-30T12:38:00.001+08:00

It's LEE SEUNG GI! <3

2nd last day

2011-09-17T17:19:00.001+08:00

Reality hits me, that she is really really gone.

Tml is the funeral. Yet the sadness is overwhelming me since today morning. The fact that the body lying in the coffin now will be gone in less than 24 hours later.

Yeah I know its all part and parcel of life. People come people go.

Since young, I went over to granny's house weekly for dinner. Every Friday. Then subsequently. Every Saturday. As I grow older, I don't go up to her house that often anymore, because I have other activities. But I always make sure I go back at least once a month.
I always felt that my granny cooked well. I always enjoyed my meals. Even simple dishes such as eggs and a plate of cai lan, i always find them tasty.

During occasions such as Chinese New Year, all the Chinese festivals that we gathered around and my granny's birthday, there will always be curry chicken, roast duck, white chicken, fish, mushroom and broccoli, chicken wings, desserts and etc. Oh, there's always SOUP for every meal. Yeah soup which I really love. Granny made good bak zhang, yam kueh and etc.

I remember she walked over to my house weekly when I was younger, bringing cakes and pastries over for my family to eat. She was really healthy back then. Every morning she will go down for exercise with the old people, mingled around the neighborhood.

It was only a few years back, I guess about 4/5 years back. She started falling sick. Heart's artery blockage, kidney problem, diabetes, falling down accidentally. The sight of her with so many needles poking around, huge scary machines around that I realized my granny was really old. She was about 90 already. My heart aches to see her getting thinner and thinner day by day.

The frequency of her admitted into the hospital increases over the years. Just like this year, I have totally lost count. The last time I saw her at the hospital, she Still talked alot. But things suddenly got worse when she was discharged and sent home. The doctor told us to be prepared. That she no longer need to come to the hospital anymore. That was two weeks ago.

One week ago. I went over to visit her. Tears just flow when I saw her. My grandmother, from a healthy old lady to a sick old dying patient.

And now she is lying there. In that coffin. Soon, really soon. She will really really be gone.

People aged and die.

The recollection of memories of my grandmother...
You will be missed and remembered.

再见了，奶奶

2011-09-14T07:45:00.001+08:00

2011年9月14号。。。
尽管这一天迟早会到来，尽管心里也做好了准备，但当我早上接到妹妹的简讯时，我还是掉泪了。

虽然我并不是一个很孝顺的孙女，虽然我没法看到您的最后一面，但是我想让您知道您是我尊敬与爱护的奶奶。

再见了奶奶。
谢谢您这二十一年来的爱戴。
谢谢您没有忘记我们是谁。
谢谢您还认得我们。
安息吧，奶奶。

2011-09-13T18:56:00.002+08:00

hee here are some photos i took from the SHINee World Concert
very little photos. but more videos!

that's Minho singing :)

SHINee concert

2011-09-13T01:34:00.001+08:00

I went for my first ever concert last sat at the Indoor Stadium !
The SHINee World First Concert in SG!
Superb! Awesome! So High!
Lol. It was really good atmosphere.
I lost my voice in the midst of screaming. :)
It makes me forget unhappy things :)

It still seem like a dream to me. That I did really see those PRETTY BOYS whom I always see on TV. Hee I secretly video-ed half of the concert. Which allow me to watch them again and again. :)

AH SO PRETTY AND FLAWLESS BOYS ><
Yeah I like small boys :D

HYDRAULICS!

2011-08-16T11:30:00.001+08:00

Oh man! I love this hydraulics prof of mine. Hahaha so funny! And he pointed middle finger!

It's just a sign why ppl so offended by it? Hahaha! So entertaining! Hahaha

Unpredictable life

2011-08-03T11:46:00.001+08:00

Was really shocked to hear the bad news early in the morning.

I would like to send my deep condolences to Chun Sheng and his family.

You have always been a very fun buddy. Ever since we know each other in primary school. And I'm glad that we always keep in contact after we graduated from pri sch. We stay so nearby each other! I still remember you always top maths in the whole cohort. Always 100 marks! We all had fun playing badminton, block catching and basketball after PSLE. You went to Xinmin Sec while I went to TK. We did not contact much then. Just chatted a bit on msn. After sec 4, we both decided to go to SP instead of JC. You were in aeronautical engineering. And I always see you around school with your friends. That day I saw you at NTU, I shouted "EH WHY ARE YOU HERE?! YOU ARE SUPPOSED TO BE IN ARMY WHAT!!"

You are older than me by just 10 days. We never forget to wish each other every year. As I could not attend your 21st birthday so I decided to treat you to a meal. First time you drive me to Seng Kang to put your bro's car and we went back to eat. Your turn to treat me for my 21st! But because of school I kept postponing the date. Till June. Lucky back then I met you for lunch, if not I will have no more chances already. That time, we were both shocked by another pri sch fren who died suddenly. And now, it's you...

14 years of friendship.

It still feel so unreal...

To all my poly and sec sch frens who are still in ns now. PLEASE TAKE GOOD CARE OF YOURSELF. I don't want to see your name on the news for the wrong reason. Chao keng nvm. Don't chiong too much.

2011-07-31T15:15:00.001+08:00

HAHAHAH I THINK IM A DAMN GOOD WIFE MATERIAL LOL

Women: Girlfriend vs Wife Material

女朋友：半夜会找你诉苦，不耐烦的话会控告你“重色轻友”。
老婆：半夜看你在打游戏会生气的骂你。
G: Will call you in the middle of the night to grumble and if you are impatient she will label you as someone who puts your buddies before girlfriend.
W: Will be angry and scold you when you are still playing games in the middle of the night.

女朋友：她会找你出去玩，然后敲诈你请客吃饭。
老婆：她会担心你这个月的生活费能不能坚持到最后，出去吃饭的时候不舍得吃太贵的东西。
G: She will look for you to have fun together and then fleece you to treat her to meals.
W: She will be concerned about whether you can make your ends meet and able to last to the end of the month, when eating out she will not bear to eat expensive stuff.

女朋友：在你生病时，会发个短消息安慰你，然后自己出去玩。
老婆：在你生病时，她会陪在你身边，唠叨着你按时吃药，多喝水。
G: When you are sick she will send you a text to console you and then go out to have fun herself.
W: When you are sick she will stay by your side to accompany you, nag at you to take your medications and drink more water.

女朋友：她无所谓你的好坏，你的一切缺点她都可以容忍，因为不在意。
老婆：她会对你这个不满意，对你那个看不顺眼，因为你是她最爱的人，所以希望你越来越棒。
G: She is not concerned about your strengths and weaknesses, she can accept you as who you are because she doesn’t give a damn.
W: She will be unhappy with everything and finds everything not pleasing because you are her loved one and she wants you to have continual improvement.

女朋友：她什么事情都会支持着你，只要你高兴。
老婆：她会站在你的角度考虑得失，但你会觉得她很小气。
G: She will be supportive of everything you do as long as you are happy.
W: She will be standing from your angle to think about the pros and cons but you will mistake her as being petty.

女朋友：她不在意你的生活细节，只要你和她出门的时候穿的干净就可以。
老婆：她会注意你的一举一动，关心你床底下、椅子上有多少双袜子没有洗。
G: She will not be bothered about the details to your life just that when you are out with her you must be dressed in clean clothing.
W: She will notice your every move, take note of how many unwashed pairs of socks that are under your bed and chairs.

女朋友：她会要你陪她吃饭，逛街，看电影。
老婆：她也会要你陪她吃饭，逛街，看电影，可她不介意是什么餐馆。
G: She will accompany you to eat, shop, and watch movies.
W: She will accompany you to eat, shop, and watch movies, but she will not mind which restaurant that is patronised.

女朋友：她不在意你去做什么，和什么人交往。
老婆：她很在意你做什么，和什么人交往，特别是和别的女孩子交往, 甚至会吃醋发脾气。
G: She doesn’t care what you are doing or who you are dating.
W: She will care about what you are doing, who you are dating, especially if you are dating girls, she will get jealous and throw tantrums.

女朋友：她只有想到现在。
老婆：她已经规划将来，想往着你们的幸福。
G: She only thinks about the present.
W: She had already made plans for the future and looking forward to the blissful life of the 2 of you.

女朋友: 是体验恋爱的感觉 “有感觉就可以”..
老婆: 是过日子 “必须有一份责任”..
G: As long as there is a feel like being in her first love everything is fine.
W: There must be a sense of responsibility in everyday of the relationship.

不要交个女朋友就叫老婆..
真的遇到可以做老婆的人，那么一定要好好珍惜..
Don’t call every girlfriends that you had courted as your wife..
But if you do meet any girl that is wife material make sure you treasure her well..

分享：女朋友是你的一半..
而老婆是你的一生..
可以这么说吗..？ ^^
你觉得呢？
Sharing: Your girlfriend is your other half..
but your wife is your life..
Can I say so..?^^
What do you think?

2011-07-26T21:43:00.000+08:00

from jasper's blog.

I DONT AGREE LEH! HAHA

Men: Boyfriend vs Husband Material

男朋友：在乎你的体重有没有升。
老公：在乎你今晚有没有吃饱。
B: Worry if your weight has increased.
H: Concern about you not having enough for dinner tonight.

男朋友：在乎你今天打扮的够不够漂亮。
老公：在乎你今天穿的那么少会不会冻着。
B: Care if your dressing today is up to standard.
H: Concern if your sexy dressing will cause you to catch a cold.

当你遇到困难的事情时候，男朋友会安慰你。
老公会在第一时间赶来帮你解决。
When you encounter problems, your boyfriend will console you. Your husband will be the first in the line to help you resolve the issue.

男朋友：在乎你今天开心过没有。
老公：会在乎你今天遇到不开心的事没有。
B: Care if you had any happy moments today.
H: Concern if you had encountered any unhappy moments today.

男朋友：只给你买漂亮的时装。
老公：给你买温暖的羽绒服。
B: Will only buy you voguish fashion.
H: Will buy you warm down garments.

男朋友：和哥们吃饭不会想你在干什么，吃饭怎么办。
老公：和哥们吃饭会不踏实时不时给你发信息，一遍遍告诉你他很快就会回来。
B: When he is having meals with his buddies he will bother about what you are doing and how are you going to have your meals when he is not around.
H: When he is having meals with his buddies he will be uneasy, sending you constant smses to keep reassuring you that he will be back in a jiffy.

如果你够漂亮，男朋友会考虑要不要把你带给他的朋友看，长长面子。
如果你不够漂亮, 你的老公走到哪都会带着你，也许你没有勇气，但是他会给你鼓励。
If you are gorgeous, your boyfriend will consider bring you to show off in front of his friends. If you are not pretty, your husband will bring you around wherever he goes and will offer encouragements even if you have low self-esteem.

男朋友的家人如果不喜欢你，他会放弃你。
老公的家人如果不喜欢你，他会尽自己最大的努力去保护你。
B: If his family members don’t like you, he will let you go.
H: If his family members don’t like you, he will protect you at all costs.

男朋友觉得你们不合适，他会走开，即使他还喜欢你。如果全世界都觉得你们不合适, 可是你的老公还是会守候你。
If your boyfriend thinks that you are not suited, he will go away, even if you still love him. Even if the whole world thinks that both of you are not suitable, your husband will always be by your side.

男朋友：只会限于他所认为的人知道你的存在。
老公：会告诉整个世界：你是他的宝贝。
B: Only a selected few will know of your existence.
H: Will tell the entire world: you are his sweet-heart.

男朋友：打完电话会急急挂掉。
老公：会等你挂断，他才会挂断。
B: Will end a call quickly.
H: Will wait for you to hang up first before hanging up.

男朋友：会在你烦闷的时候让你自己静静。
老公：会留下来跟你吵架，帮你发泄。
B: Will distance himself to let you cool down when you are troubled
H: Will stay and start a quarrel to help you vent your frustrations.

男朋友：在你特殊的几天里会躲着你。
老公：会在那几天给你冲热水，给你讲笑话。
B: During the time of the month, he will try to avoid you.
H: He will brew you hot drinks and entertain you with his jokes.

男朋友：会把你说分手当真。
老公：会在你说分手之后挽留你，因为他知道你希望被挽留，并不想走。
B: Will treat your threat about breaking up as real.
H: Will know that by telling him about breaking up you are yearning to be retained and not really wanting to leave.

男朋友：会在自己有能力的范围内满足你。
老公：会付出一切都要满足你，即使满足不了，他还是会尽最大努力。
B: Will try to satisfy you within his limits.
H: Will try his very best to satisfy you and even if he can’t do it, he will still try extremely hard.

男朋友：想的明天和未来很少。
老公：会把你们以后的宝宝名字都取好。
B: Will do very little planning about tomorrow and the future.
H: Will pick the names of the babies that the both of you are going to have.

男朋友：不敢给承诺，给了也未必做到。
老公：敢于做出了承诺，而且一定会做到。
B: Won’t dare to make any promises and even if he did he will not be able to fulfill them.
H: Dare to make promises and will always abide to them.

男朋友：不敢相信你们的爱情。
老公：会把娶你当做他的人生目标，并且渴望和你一起变老。
B: Won’t dare to believe the love between the both of you.
H: Will put marrying you as his aim in life and hope to grow old together with you.

亲爱的朋友们，不要轻易叫他老公..
不是每个男朋友都可以叫老公..
Dear friends, don’t acknowledge him as your husband easily..
Not every boyfriend is husband material..

有些男人只能适合做男朋友，
他或许是一个不错的男朋友，
但最终却不适合当老公..
Some men are only suitable as boyfriends; he can be excellent boyfriend, but inappropriate to be a husband..

毕竟婚前婚后是真的两回事..
Bottom-line is, life before and after marriage is a completely different ball game..

Damn it

2011-07-23T14:32:00.001+08:00

Argh F it!
Rumored that P Wong gonna take over Dr M for wastewater engineering. Oh damn! Really WTF! I feel damn stressed alr. I hate sch even more now. DAMN!!

PAINTBALL

2011-07-19T21:17:00.001+08:00

ALL MY DEAR FRIENDS! Wanna go for paintball session tgt? I want to play!!

Goals and dreams

2011-07-04T18:18:00.001+08:00

Was pondering about my dreams, goals and aspirations since young.

When I was in pre-school, I wanna be an astronaut. I thought that in secondary school, there will be such subject that would be taught in school.

When I was in pri school, I wanted to be a teacher. I played 'teacher and students' with my sisters. And I will always prepare my stuffs to teach my sisters. Haha

When I was in lower secondary school, I realized I love biology alot and told myself I want to be a doctor. Study medicine and be a good female gynae. Haha! Or a children doctor.

When I was in upper secondary school, I gave up on biology to study geography because I love nature and how earth is being formed. Haha! I can do all the plate tectonics questions! I did a project on marine biology. And was inspired to be a marine biologist. Haha! But I'm scared of swimming in the sea!

Upon graduation, I wanted to sign on. Haha! Yeah u never read wrongly. I wanted to join the army! But yeah, everyone dissuaded me.

When I was in polytechnic, I studied env and water tech. And felt that I wanna be in this industry. Solving and finding water solutions in less developed countries. I want to work in hyflux and hope I can be like Olivia Lum. Haha

Again upon graduation, the thought of signing on came up again. I checked out all the SAF website. Even applied for DSTA scholarship! But again, I did not. A career I wanted. So Near yet so far.

Girls should always be independent. And I also want to be a career minded woman.

Now I'm gg to year three of uni. But sadly, I no longer know what I want in life. Hahaha. Sad isn't it? All those things I want seem so far away now.

2011-06-13T20:30:00.005+08:00

12th June

Happy Birthday to LOVE!

MBS Skypark

After which, Buffet at Ellenborough Market Cafe at Swissotel Merchant Court :D
Long time since i got there.
DURIAN PUREE!!

2011-06-11T16:19:00.001+08:00

3 MORE DISNEY SHIRTS FOR ME!! ^^

2011-06-09T21:09:00.005+08:00

BACK FROM HONG KONG!

5days 4 nights over there.

1st day:
went on broad cathay pacific. wee there's haagen daz ice cream! :D
it was already midnight when i reached HK.
checked in into L Nina Hotel. it's quite a nice hotel with nice scenery

2nd day:
Took a bus to Lamma Island from Tung Chung MTR and went up the Giant Buddha.
Weather was really warm.
After which went back to the shopping outlets next to the station.
Nothing much to buy because it's all branded goods.
Went to Central MTR and it's a place FULL OF PHILIPPINOS!
machiam our little india like that ><
picnic-ing singing dancing. very scary. haha
Shouldnt find a cafe for lunch and in the end settle at this Chinese Restaurant which served NICE CHA SIEW & ROAST PORK RICE!
a few dishes only and it's quite expensive.
Took the peak tram up to The Peak and The Madame Tussauds.
Quite nice scenery. and had fun taking photos at the Madame Tussauds.
Night time went to Temple Street. just normal pasar malam. nothing much to buy or see. (Taiwan's Night street still better >< )

3rd day:
it's a public holiday. the dragonboat festival.
went roaming around the neighbourhood. found nice 茶餐厅 (cafe).
i like their porridge and their milk tea!
i think HK noodles not as nice eh. tough tough hard hard de.
Pastries not bad but eat too much also sianz. HAHA
Walked around Ladies Market and Fa Yuen Street.
Same thing, nth much to buy.
Lucky i chanced upon this small mall because i need to find toilet. HAHA
The mall is like our bugis street. Can find really good deals here.
I RECOMMEND LADIES TO COME HERE. because you can find alot of clothes below $10 and even $5! Quite good quality and most important CHEAP! HAHAHA. so can buy really alot.
my legs very sore from walking already.
we went to walk around Tsim Sha Tsui, wanted to see the Symphony of Lights at 8pm but we were quite tired from walking and we were too lazy to wait for another 3 more hours for the Lights. so we headed back to Hotel.
Went Dinner at some cafes. and shopped around the Malls next to the Hotel instead.
They have got quite a lot of sales going on. Even the clothes in Uni Qlo are so much cheaper than in SG! So i bought a Mickey shirt there ;)

4th day:
DISNEYLAND!
i conclude that i love Disneyland more than USS because it's more fairytale and i just love the feeling there.
The theme park is rather small. There's only one Thrilling ride which is the indoor roller coaster which i find it so-so.
But i still enjoyed watching those Musicals and 3D and Parade and Fireworks. Just so amazing and hmmm MAGICAL and hmmm FAIRYTALE! sorry for the lack of words. HAHA.
and i spend about half of my money there :D:D:D
Yeah i felt happy spending money there. HAHA

5th day:
DIM SUM IN THE MORNING!
dim sum was quite nice but i prefer it with chilli. Oh Hongki dont eat chilli.

so that's the end of my HK trip :D

女人啊

2011-06-01T08:58:00.001+08:00

Huan's blog :D

女人啊，
当你再度向财富致敬，向名利欢呼，向权力高举臂膀，
请不必询问那只曾经歌咏的画眉，
它已不知飞向何方，
因为她的嗓音已经干枯喑哑，
为了真实、尊荣和洁净灵魂的灭亡。

女人啊，
你那华丽的金钻，闪耀的珠宝，
谁会注意你美丽外表下那钻石般的信仰。

女人啊，
当爱情违背了他的誓言，
当你的绝望化作一颗颗复仇的泪水，
谁会在意谁曾经走过你的心房。

女人啊，
当你为你所敬仰的爱情欢呼，
为你心爱的人去歌唱，
谁会为它而感动停驻在你的身边旁。

女人啊，
当你放下自尊去寻找曾经的梦想，
谁会在乎你的背后有怎样的过往。

女人啊，
当你为你的爱情付出了圣洁，
无法追随上帝的身旁，
谁会为你的痴迷而感到感伤。

女人啊，
当你无知你的外表有什么样的光芒，
却不知魔鬼早已向你伸出了肮脏的舌头。

女人啊，当你说出那甜美的语言却不知会遭到恶毒的眼光。

女人啊，当你抬头挺胸圣洁的面对世俗的眼光，
却不知在背后有多少意淫的脸庞。

女人啊，
当你用你的方式去祭奠曾经的爱情，
却不知毒蛇早已缠绕你全身，让你迷失了方向。

女人啊，
当你用夜莺般的歌声为人们唱到沙哑，
他们只会唾弃你那流血的的嘴角和长白的脸庞。

女人啊，
当你为你的记忆拒绝那红色的玫瑰，
他们拔掉那鲜艳的花朵，用黑色刺扎满你的全身，让容颜不再追随你的身旁。

女人啊，
如果钻石代表的了永恒，
为什么他们把它缝制为你虚妄的外衣。

女人啊，
如果那爱情的香味代表了你的甜美，
为什么上帝会拒绝你那诱人的香，把你推入魔女的殿堂。

女人啊，
当权力让你失去了自由，
为什么人们还要把你放逐在开满花朵的草地，
为你戴上冰冷的的枷锁，鞭打你满身的创伤。

女人啊，
当你看见一样的夜莺，闻到诱人的香，见到美丽的花朵，
带着枷锁的她们却有着妒忌的眼光，
用黑色的泥土粘满你的全身，让王子遗弃他曾经深爱的姑娘。

女人啊，
当你被人们用荆棘捆绑，满足了魔鬼的欲望，
恐惧的人们让你却成为了唾沫的对象。

女人啊，
如果玫瑰代表爱情，
那他们又怎么舍得在你找到幸福时将它的刺扎入你的全身，
让爱人不敢沾染你带血的身躯，为你戴上金色的指环，灵魂得不到解放。

女人啊，
圣洁的脸表露不出你的信仰，
纯洁的心不能传达你对上帝的向往,
甜美的香只会让魔鬼在黑夜中寻找到你的身旁，
当钻石为你而闪耀，照亮的只会是嫉妒的眼光，
当权力让你不再自由，为你解开枷锁是断头台那冰冷的枪，
你那夜莺般的歌声让人们流下的只是毒液般的嘴唇，
去侵蚀王子的耳朵和美丽的衣裳，
那些为你送上玫瑰的人们用花瓣盛引你鲜红的血液，
还为魔鬼奉上高贵的赞美，让天使也离你而去，让你在黑暗中找不到方向，
当你一直在找寻光明的天堂，魔鬼还在用他的唾液侵蚀你的身驱，
迷惑天使误把你当作是魔女的伪装，
你流下的眼泪被人们当作美丽的装饰，
骄傲的围绕在火炉边向孩子们讲述是怎样把你灭亡。

女人啊，
当有人为你哭泣时，
你能不能找到你该走的方向，
带着迷人面容，诱人的香和华丽的泪珠，高傲的，
步入那圣洁的殿堂

————摘自莎士比亚《仲夏夜之梦》

Like that

2011-05-23T01:58:00.001+08:00

I can be a good friend to others. But I'm definitely not a good gf because I'm temperamental, demanding, not as tolerant and I like to 无理取闹。

That's me.

2011-05-19T22:32:00.001+08:00

SO SO SO MANY THINGS TO DO THIS HOLIDAYS!

GOING TO MAKE GOOD USE OF THIS HOLIDAYS!!

HONG KONG TRIP!
WORKING! MORE $$$$$$ !!
ARGH TOO MANY THINGS TO DO.. HAHAHAHAHA

Exams is over!!

2011-05-19T19:53:00.001+08:00

HURRAY TO END OF EXAMS!
HURRAY TO END OF HORRENDOUS YEAR 2 IN NTU!

I have never look SO FORWARD to a holidays before.

Well I think I deserve a good break :D

Stressed

2011-05-12T21:47:00.000+08:00

I'm feeling stressed out. I'm worried.
I dont know what to do.
No one can help me. Except myself.

Env process

2011-05-12T21:01:00.000+08:00

What I fear now is I cannot pass Env Process. I just hope for a D.

Exam stress

2011-04-18T17:54:00.001+08:00

I know I'm suffering from exam stress because all food are tasteless to me. And im starting not to sleep well. :(

ONE MORE MONTH TO FREEDOM!!

Grandma

2011-04-17T11:37:00.001+08:00

It suddenly dawned on me that getting old is very scary.

I was scare out of my wits this morning. My dad called me while all of us were sleeping. Asking me to wake both my sis up, hurry wash up and go to my grandma's place. At that moment, I was already thinking of the worst.

I know I'm not a filial granddaughter. I did not visit her when she was hospitalized for three weeks. The only time I went to the hospital, I realized I did not being my ic nor ezlink, hence the staff did not allow me to go up the visiting ward. So all these weeks, I just hear from my dad that grandma is feeling good inside, and that she is still bubbly talking. So I just assumed she will be back home soon, safe and sound.

While on my way to my grandma's house, tears blurred my eyesight and flow freely down. I know I should not be thinking of the worst.

I saw grandma lying on the bed, so weak and bony. I greeted her, to let her know my sis and I had come to visit her. I was feeling scared, really scared...

All I hope things will get better. I will still like to see her every sat when I go up for dinner, she sitting at the dining table with us.

...

2011-04-14T20:39:00.001+08:00

Saw huan's blog...

Did some reflection and recalled some happy and sad memories of frens...

We were all happier when we were younger. As we grow up, we see how ugly the society and people are around us.

SOME people are retards. ( I know it's wrong to bitch about ppl but this one person I just dislike getting near him because listening to him talk make one turns stupid. He thinks he is an entertainer and everyone enjoy being with him)

In your heart, you know who are the true ones who will stay with you even if two ppl have not talk for a long time. You just know it.

Sch

2011-04-14T12:54:00.001+08:00

Realize there are some retards around me.

Random thoughts

2011-04-10T22:51:00.001+08:00

Just some random thoughts

很多时候，想要的东西并不会是能得到的。如果真的让你得到了，也可能会很不开心。

2011-04-04T23:09:00.003+08:00

insight of my Structures Lecture:

"to find the deflection of the slope, draw a tangent "lies" (line).
the "porn" (point) loads act at A. use LG "bra" (algebra) and solve the "cock"wise (clockwise) moment to find the angle. find another "porn" (point) when the deflection is zero.
but "TONE" (dont) worry AH, i am very "Lies" (nice), exams wont come out so difficult AH.
But i "TONE"(dont) know WHY but i like to give "porn" (point) moment in the questions. "

Hong-ki slang aH...

2011-03-23T00:48:00.002+08:00

BF ALMOST SIGNED ME UP FOR SUNDOWN!

but luckily it's FULL!
although it's only 10km but still, MARATHON LEH!
2.4km i already want to die! HAHAHA

2011-03-21T23:16:00.002+08:00

found out that before uni starts in aug 2010. i was 48kg.
weighed myself during CNY and i was 42kg. that moment i was thinking "WEIGHING MACHINE CFM SPOILT!!".
now into term 2 of sem 2 i'm 43.5kg.

THIS TELLS HOW STRESSFUL UNI LIFE IS.
i lost appetite and dropped 6kg within 5 months. POWERFUL!

2011-03-20T23:34:00.005+08:00

HAPPY BIRTHDAY GOH SIEW MAI!!

end of recess week!
SOB!
2 more months and that's it :)
but hell weeks ahead.
IM LOOKING FORWARD TO MAY 19!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
HAIZ. school life still SUCKS BIG TIME.

roar my blog is getting boring and i dont know what else to update about.
just got back from surprising siew mai on her 21st.

just gonna post some photos here then.

MY 21ST BIRTHDAY CLELBRATIONS:

BESTIES FOREVER. :)

WONDERFUL POLY FRENS + LIM SU-QI

IM 21!

Valentine's Day gift:

USS NIGHT with Cousins :)

Out at Loof with BF.

2011-03-11T16:09:00.002+08:00

recess week begins.
just ended 5 tests in 1 week. SHAGGED ar!

haha received 1st warning.
need to work doubly hard :(
need to score at least all B+ to pull up the bloody CGPA!
CRAZY!

2011-02-19T11:49:00.002+08:00

haiz.

tests tests exams coming up again.

feeling suffocated.

no motivations.

as the days go by, i feel more frustrated and irritated because i dont get what the hell lecturers are talking about.

They go through tutorials like we know how to do EVERYTHING.

after that telling us it's very easy and it's not about memorising.

KNS

now there's also their EID module (same as IDEA). Must come out with ideas, do posters, presentation and exhibition.

AND THIS MODULE ONLY 1 AU! damn stupid. need to do so many things but only worth 1 AU.

how stupid can NTU gets.

RAWR!

all i want to do is to keep sleeping.

2011-02-16T20:12:00.000+08:00

2011-02-11T22:33:00.002+08:00

A brief summary of my days since my last post.

27th Jan: THANKS SIEW MAI SHUHUAN FOR THAT UNEXPECTED SURPRISE. and ba-ka-ing with CL. HAHA. and thanks those whose birthday wishes are on that board. so many ppl to thanks.

28th Jan: the day i turned 21 =) okay la. just another normal day. =D but felt loved by all my presents :P HAHAHAHA

As i grow older, it feels like CNY atmosphere diminished year by year. Maybe because we have all grown up? Or is it not as exciting anymore? I looked forward to CNY because of that 4 days break from HORRIBLE ntu. and now im back to reality, dreading to fight another mind and body battle till mid may.

okay signing off. nothing else to say anymore.

2011-01-19T00:29:00.006+08:00

wanna blog about my advance 21st birthday celebration with XZL on 17th Jan.

=)

actually wanted to have a not so full lunch so that we can have desserts after that.
but turned out we were too full.

went for movie HELLO STRANGER!
i strongly recommend this movie!!
cuz it's really really FUNNY!
it's a THAI Romance Comedy.

i will rate it 4.5/5 ;)

Gist of the movie:
A love story about two strangers who know nothing about each other and fall in love.

He is a football fanatic, videogame nerd, social butterfly, comic lover, tired of love stories and a cynic of love while she is Korean soap opera fan, beef lover, devout radio station listener, avid book reader, and homebody.

Together, they are perfect strangers who will travel, eat, share a room, and talk about anything and everything including each others top secrets.

BAE YONG JUN!
HAHAHAHA

after movie MS Jack's Place :)
i want my steak! hehehe.

and i love my 21st birthday presents from XZL. because it's very personalised :)

lovely day!

2011-01-18T23:50:00.001+08:00

haiz. GEK SIM AR!

tell me what to do now.

2011-01-16T22:30:00.002+08:00

i was reading Jasper's blog and saw this.

http://newsfeed.time.com/2011/01/13/horoscope-hang-up-earth-rotation-changes-zodiac-signs/

Horoscope Hang-Up: Earth Rotation Changes Zodiac Signs

The Minnesota Planetarium Society declared that the Moon’s gravitational pull on the earth has caused a change in the planet’s position in terms of its axis and this has finally lead to effect of stars on Earth leading to change in previously existing zodiacs too.

copied paste from the website:
Capricorn: Jan. 20-Feb. 16.
Aquarius: Feb. 16-March 11.
Pisces: March 11-April 18.
Aries: April 18-May 13.
Taurus: May 13-June 21.
Gemini: June 21-July 20.
Cancer: July 20-Aug. 10.
Leo: Aug. 10-Sept. 16.
Virgo: Sept. 16-Oct. 30.
Libra: Oct. 30-Nov. 23.
Scorpio: Nov. 23-29.
Ophiuchus: Nov. 29-Dec. 17.
Sagittarius: Dec. 17-Jan. 20.

means im no longer an AQUARIUS but a CAPRICORN?!?!
hmmmm i still want to be Aquarius. :(

and there's a new Sign called Ophiuchus!
so all along we were wrong?!
hahaha

Capricorn

Old Dates: Dec. 22-Jan. 19.

New Dates: Jan. 20-Feb. 16.

Symbolized by the goat, Capricorn is the epitome of professionalism and traditional values. Capricorns are known to be good managers and hard workers, preferring to stick to practicality and reason in their daily lives.

Aquarius

Old Dates: Jan. 20-Feb. 18.

New Dates: Feb. 16-March 11.

Water-Bearers can take on a two-faced personality: some are quiet and shy, while others are loud and energetic. No matter which side you tend toward, Aquarians are problem-solvers with an independent, imaginative spirit.

2011-01-12T23:15:00.001+08:00

dont know what is on my mind these days.

sometimes i dont feel like thinking about anything.

2011-01-02T23:32:00.001+08:00

i know it's already 2nd Jan 2011. But still HAPPY NEW YEAR EVERYONE!

boo.. i dont look forward to 2011. because i still have 2.5 semesters more to endure. :(
somehow i missed 2010.. .. ..

2010-12-31T00:32:00.001+08:00

it's 31st Dec 2010. So i'm going to reflect and summaries my 365 days of 2010.

the organization of the contents will be a little messy and jumbled up.
because i'm just going to type whatever that comes into my mind.

2010 can be divided into 3 major parts: End of Poly, Work, Start of Uni
End of Poly: like finally, the pioneer batch of DEWT had finally graduated. We waited long for this day to come. All of us suddenly got closer as the end drew nearer. I still remember some of us went for Mac Breakfast one fine morning ( back in those days, none of us will really meet up for breakfast because we all want to sleep later! ). Still remember that last day of school, most of us dressed up to take photos around the school. From LT3A classrooms to Foodcourt 1 to our Hyd Lab with Faye and Burhan - (our beloved lab tech). We ordered Pizza for lunch. Faye even put up the "The Party's Here" banner up to welcome us. We had our last exam, and i'm sure everyone will not ever forget Cedric RUNNING AND SCREAMING "IT'S OVER!" outside the exam hall. I would say that the 1 day Kukup Trip was the last overseas trip as a class. We all parted ways after that, only to meet again on SP Graduation Day. That sentimental Graduation Speech from Kenneth Chen (our 150 000th grad) which touched most of the DEWT heart. Argh, I'm feeling nostalgic for my poly days. Poly days were tough but we enjoyed the process :)

Work: worked as a temp admin in NCS Pte Ltd at People's Association- IT Department. I spent about 6 months in there and forged close friendships and bonds with people. I'm glad to have work over there. Maybe because i'm only a temp, but i really love working there. Because of the nice people surrounding me. I started drinking Gong Cha after Jasper intro it to us using his free Citysquare Vouchers. and since then, i'm a fan of GONG CHA (okay this is random). there might be days when i felt really irritated and frustrated with my boss and wanted to quit at that moment, but now i reflected about it, that's how working life is all about, isnt it? i always look forward to lunch time because i can eat (i'm always hungry when im working) and i like listening to my colleagues' jokes and conversation. Edward enjoys asking the "million dollars questions", while Wei Chin, Kevin Hu and Edward forever talking about DOTA and how Wei Chin want to take part in DOTA competitions, buy a condo next to citysquare, put a food conveyor in the middle serving MACDONALDS and placed 5 vs 5 PC at the side to play DOTA. How that lady from opp (wah i suddenly cannot rmb her name) loves to pester Jasper to help her and i always end up laughing at him. WORLD CUP PERIOD: how godpa loves to ask me about which team will win and scolded me for thinking that i'm Paul the Octupus and asking me for money when the team lost. How my ex boss enjoyed predicting the results for each game. How i tahan that one month watching almost 80% of the matches with Jasper. so so many happy memories inside :)

Start of Uni: it's like a nightmare comes true. The stressed faced since Day 1. How i dislike school and hall. How i look forward to small happy things to make me forget about school temporary. Crazy lecturers, speak like choo-choo-train lecturers and perverted lecturers. Food in school is really cmi but for the sake of my stomach, i cannot starve myself to death. NTU is a super ulu place that birds also dont want to lay their eggs there. so out of civilisation!

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2010 is the most depressing year in my whole 20 years of life.
Heartbreak, depression, frustration, irritation and emo-ness.
(*before i start on this, i want to make it clear that i'm not pinpointing or blaming anyone or whatsoever)

i would say that the first 6 months of 2010 was really tough for me. i even felt that i have split personality and suffer from depression at times. i really had a hard time letting go of A.
i wonder how many pails of tears i had shed. My heart aches whenever i recalled some of the incidents. My tears will flow whenever i hear songs that i can relate to.
From a cheerful person, i changed to an anti-social person and enjoys being alone. i dislike company. I refused to listen to any of my friends. To sort out my confused mind, i will always go for intense swimming or running. Every time when i thought that i was completely over A, some things will occur and I will start to breakdown again.
Ppl asked me why, but i never really answer them, because love is an uncontrollable and irrational feelings. It's totally unpredictable. Even i get frustrated and irritated at myself whenever i broke down because of A. Most of the time at work, i will always keep myself occupied to escape from this heart and mind torture (yeah Jasper always said I'm a sadist because I love to torture myself). However, once i got home, i started feeling emo again.
I hate this. I hate myself for being so fragile and emotional at times. But i really could not control my own feelings. i only decided to get over A in Aug, after i had a heart to heart talk with Godpa. But i soon realized that once i left PA, those sad memories still cont to invade me.
School started, i felt depressed again. i got even more depressed because i hate school and hall so much, to the point that i can even shed tears on train rides to school. The emo-ness was too overwhelming. I always look forward to going home, and only realized how impt family is. Because they will always be the one staying by you no matter what happen.

Well i think it's just a transition period for me. Because i get too comfortable with my previous environment, it's hard to let go. And i feel better now, after i found a good friend that i can stick with for the next 2.5 semesters. ;)

Happy moments are always short-lived. i think i can count the number of incidents/events that i really feel happy about: Taiwan Trip with Ailing, SP Graduation Day, World Cup Period, Last two months in PA, Getting class 3 License. oh how sad is my 2010! =)

Another Day - SM the Ballad. (Yeah 1st of Jan 2011 is just another day)

2010-12-29T01:12:00.002+08:00

RASHES ON MY FACE! :(

Haiz i dont know whether is it the alcohol effect or because of the makeup from the makeup workshop.

Hmm. let me analyse it.
I dont think it's really alcohol effects because the previous time i drank, nothing happened.
oh after putting on the makeup, my forehead starts to have some redness and i only realized all the clustered red dots after removing the makeup from my face.
so maybe i'm allergic to "make up for ever" products because when i use maybelline or silkygirl products, nothing happen. HAHA

so at the end of the day im blaming "make up for ever". HAHA

alright, at least i did learn some makeup basics from the workshop.

anyway it was a good day out with the trinity. At first i thought we dont have much topics to talk about, afterall the last time we met was SP Graduation in May and that we were also from different cliques, but it all turned out fine :)

Went The Loof with the gals at night. and it's really a quiet and fine place for catch up and gathering. will recommend that place next time :)

Had Fresh Kiwi Martini.
1st glass: machiam drinking Kiwi Juice. Sweet and Sour!
2nd glass: finally there's alcohol taste.

and i like the chicken wings! =)

Miss You - SM the Ballad

Lover's Concerto (With Lyrics)

2010-12-28T01:11:00.000+08:00

Lover's Concerto
A song many would play on their wedding.
A familiar tune that we always hear on the piano. But i guess many dont really know the lyrics.
Finally got to know the lyrics after going partyworld with my cousins.
it's really a sweet and serene song.
so here goes the lyrics:

How gentle is the rain
That falls softly on the meadow
Birds high up in the trees
Serenade the clouds with their melody

Oh! See there beyond the hills
The bright colors of the rainbow
Some magic from above
Made this day for us
Just to fall in love

You hold me in your arms
And say once again you love me
And if your love is true
Everything will be just as wonderful

Now, I belong to you
From this day until forever
Just love me tenderly
And I'll give to you
Every part of me

Oh! Don't ever make me cry
Through long lonely nights without love
Be always true to me
Keep this day in your heart eternally

You hold me in your arms
And say once again you love me
And if your love is true
Everything will be just as wonderful

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=0_wmS9DleJ4&feature=related

=) =)

2010-12-26T23:23:00.003+08:00

CHRISTMAS IS OVER!

christmas party at aunt's house every year never fail to lift up my moods
so it's JAPANESE THEME this year.
JAPANESE FOOD!
cold noodles tempura sushi.. thinking about it now makes me hungry again. ROAR =)

this is really really nice.. so gonna get it and cooked for myself this holidays again.

nephew Rion came over at night.
and baby boy caught all of our attention at once.
sadly he did not like ppl to carry him.
but still managed to get a few shots with him!
so cute!. SHUHUAN FASTER GO GIVE BIRTH AND LET ME PLAY WITH YOUR KIDS!
i be their godma. HAHAHA

group photo with Rion. he was about to cry already.

KISSING TIGGER!

it seems like im taking advantage of a little boy.
but I'M NOT! he saw me and pouted out his lips.
SO CUTE! TELL ME HOW NOT TO KISS HIM.

here are some photos from the celebration:

with my sisters

with cousins.

decided to go partyworld after the celebration since we were all still high.
(i think im the highest since i pulped down dont know how many cups of alcohol in that few minutes cuz we were rushing to go off)

first time out in the night with my cousins.
basically screaming and singing and dancing in the room.

now i cant wait for our next USS Hollywood night on 15th Jan :)

Please take care of my boyfriend - Younha

2010-12-25T01:32:00.002+08:00

MERRY 2010 CHRISTMAS TO ALL! =D
it's time for candies chocolate and FOOD and the season to get FAT!

im in the mood to sing xmas song what should i sing?

Silent Night? NAH too emo.
Last Christmas? sang before alr.

HAHA okay dunno what im talking already.

WOOHOO! DRINK DRINK DRINK! =X

2010-12-23T00:11:00.001+08:00

it's the drinking season! HAHA :)

2010-12-22T00:50:00.003+08:00

BUSY HOLIDAYS!

hahaha im so so busy now... busy going out!
okay my dec is packed :)

21st dec: out with 4b classmates. GOH SIEW MAI WU SHUHUAN BAI ZHIPENG JONK AND GAVIN LOW

22nd dec: off to johor for one day trip with family

23rd dec: out with XZL

24th dec: home sweet home :) SWIMMING/RUNNING

25th dec: xmas party cum sis's birthday celebration at aunt's place. maybe out for k overnight with cousins! ;)

26th dec: SWIMMING/ RUNNING

27th dec: swimming/ running

28th dec: makeup lessons with the trinity & seafood dinner with shuhuan kenneth and siew mai!

29th dec: swimming/running

30th dec: FEASTING on daddy's birthday!

31st dec: out with tQ for his belated birthday treat and mayb fireworks for countdown.

END OF 2010! =D

beautiful restriction by SNSD is nice :)

2010-12-17T22:57:00.001+08:00

haiz i dunno!

hope not.

2010-12-12T15:12:00.002+08:00

1 week more to END OF EXAMS! :)

altho i'm getting tired already, but still i have to hang on!

2010-12-04T02:03:00.001+08:00

1 more week to exams!!! =D

and im having irregular sleeping hours now :)
all thanks to uni.

i'll be back! ~~

2010-11-17T16:56:00.002+08:00

finally signed up for elementary korean language class :)

and that presentation better goes well tml before i curse and swear at whoever.
tech comm really wasted a whole lot of my time.
yeah i think i have lost my patience and im getting more bad tempered. which is very bad.
i need to keep my calmness.

countdown: 1 more month to the end.

white lies - lee seung gi

2010-11-07T20:51:00.002+08:00

"You could know someone for years and still be strangers.
You could also feel like you have known someone for a couple of lifetimes at your First Hello.
The Chinese calls this Yuan Fen - Destiny.
Sometimes life bores you to oblivion when nothing else happens, and then one fine day it leads you right into a grand event, I supposed this is what they call God's Will.
Sometime, even a small glance could set you off and get you all crazy worked up, and sometime you remain unfazed even when the sky comes tumbling down.
Life has imparted you experience and wisdom.
Courage brings you wisdom, cowardice only makes you a bigger coward. "

very true indeed :)

2010-11-06T22:48:00.001+08:00

The Day I Confessed My Love – Jo Kwon

How should I say this? I’ve thought about it hundreds of times
I couldn’t sleep well and my face looks horrible
I’m not happy with my hair today
I’m on tenterhooks all day

Unknowingly, there’s only an hour left till I meet you
I went to the florist and wanted to buy you some flowers
Should I buy roses? Or should I buy another type of flower?
Ah I don’t know anymore. “Ahjumma, make it prettier please~!”

When we meet today, I was going to say you’re pretty
But when we actually met, “I bought you flowers so you buy me food!”
Why did I end up saying these things?

Am I simply stupid or naïve?
Such disheartening words just came out of my mouth
Actually what I wanted to say is
I love you

The words I practiced the whole night, I forgot them all
Even though I’m just giving you this flower so dully
You still smile at me brightly and look like you really like it
You’re an angel

You are my angel

We were chatting about this and that while we eat
When should I say it, waiting for the chance
Should I say it now? I should say it now. Actually, I can’t hear anything right now.

I wanted to tell you that my heart belongs only to you
“Since the two of us are lonely, so let’s try dating each other”
I kept saying such words

Am I simply stupid or naïve?
Such disheartening words just came out of my mouth
Actually what I wanted to say is
I love you

The words I practiced the whole night, I forgot them all
Even though I confessed in a dull manner
But you still smile brightly and nodded your head lightly at me
You are an angel

You are my angel

I love you I love you
The words I practiced the whole night I still can’t say it out
I like you, I love you, these are words I must tell you

Oh am I simply stupid or naïve?
Such disheartening words just came out of my mouth
Actually what I wanted to say is
I love you

The words I practiced the whole night, I forgot them all
Even though I confessed in a dull manner
But you still smile brightly and nodded your head lightly at me
You are an angel

You are my angel
You are my angel

I would treat you better

2010-11-05T20:17:00.001+08:00

getting tired.

pull me up again.

2010-11-01T22:10:00.002+08:00

exactly 2 more months to 2011

sometimes i just feel that i lost track of time.
November
to those pri sch to jc kids, it's HOLIDAYS
to those working adults, it's time to get BONUS and clear leaves
to poly students, tests coming soon and yeah i get to enjoy christmas.
to uni students, oh great, a sem is coming to an end. and oh no, exams are coming and yeah it's battle.

i want to go out.

2010-10-31T20:32:00.002+08:00

S-E-O-U-L anyone?! =D

haiz. im dreading to start on tech comm. keep editing and editing and editing. it's so difficult to find info/journals/articles about riprap. DAMN. it's so bloody irritating!

2010-10-26T21:00:00.002+08:00

thanks everyone for all your concerns :)

i will take good care of myself.

blogger is just a platform for me to destress.

project work really sucks!
im getting stressed by it. (and im alr stressed about sch)
and i think when i get too stressed, i become depressed. haha

i think i dislike env eng more now.

2010-10-25T00:51:00.001+08:00

my only motivation now is for dec holidays to come.
the only thing i look forward to now is xmas.

nothing else makes me happy as long as it is about school.

school sucks ar! :(

2010-10-22T16:06:00.004+08:00

i think i never dread going back to sch so much before.

i just want to get out.

i'm feeling so suffocated.

haiz.

why am i feeling this way?

please fast forward time.

2010-10-21T23:48:00.002+08:00

I Love You From Now On

saranghae gaseumsoge chaoreuneun mal
"I love you". Words from the bottom of my heart
saranghae cheonbeoneul deo hago sipeun mal
"I love you" . Words that I would like to say again a thousand times
yeotae haejun jeok eobseoseo deo manhi jugopeun
Until now I haven’t give you anything. So I want to give you more now
ojik neoegeman haejugo sipeun mal
Words which I would like to tell. Only to you.

2010-10-21T23:24:00.001+08:00

ENJOYS MY DINNER AND COFFEE! :)

2010-10-13T00:34:00.003+08:00

just got back my 1st quizzes results and it's not very fantastic.

i was extremely upset over it but well i got over it soon enough too.

nothing to dwell about anymore.

well either i never study hard enough or the ppl in my course are so bloody smart.

everyone do badly nvm. the prob is when everyone does well and you are of one those who dont, that's the most sianz part.

i guess we all always ask ourselves why did we even choose env/civil engineering.

guess it's because we just gotta endure for 3 more years and that's it.

after entering this course, then i know im not really interested in it.

is it too late to realize it now? well im not too sure.

haha all i know is - just get that piece of paper and get out of uni soon!

hmmm i tell myself it's okay.

i gotta get used to it and stand up again.

the song peizhen you all know dont just fall like that :)

2010-10-09T20:51:00.001+08:00

it is about in the right company.

2010-10-02T21:46:00.001+08:00

seeing so many photos of friends POP.

i also want to go sia.

WHY I NO BRO?!?! HAHAHA

2010-10-01T20:41:00.003+08:00

FINALLY something for me to be happy about ever since sch term starts.

CONGRATULATION TO MYSELF FOR GETTING CLASS 3 LICENSE =)

i strike kerb while doing parallel parking (and i did not even know until the tester told me). that moment i was like. OH NO DIE LIAO FAIL LIAO. 10 demerit points already :(

luckily the test route was easy and no major mistakes.
PASSED WITH 18 POINTS. super lucky! :D

3 quizzes next week. all 15%. i gotta study all day long for it. haiz. very stressed.
the only thing i look forward to is Shangri-La The Line Buffet on 8 Oct Friday.
that is my only motivation for that nightmare week.

2010-09-25T22:07:00.000+08:00

very bad dry cough!

studying lower my immune system. HAIZ!

2010-09-24T20:42:00.002+08:00

so what does it mean when one get tired of a friendship?
sometimes you wonder why a particular friendship is so hard to maintain.
even when you keep trying.
you keep giving in.
you take initiative.
no matter how hard you try, somehow it's all in vain.
because you never feel that you will ever be that particular friend's priority.

time flies eh.
i left PA exactly 4 weeks ago.
and all of a sudden, im really missing the people at PA terribly now :(
those months spent with all of them are unforgettable.

2010-09-18T20:11:00.003+08:00

getting moody on a Saturday night is really a turn-off.
the thought of going back to hall tml night is making me feel very depressed.
and tears come so easily now.
i dont know why i have become so weak ever since sch started.
i wonder at times if i will be able to get through the next 3 years.

however thanks to all who constantly motivate and encourage me from time to time.
because i really do need them.

2010-09-16T22:47:00.000+08:00

"It’s amazing how at one point in our lives we will be extremely close with someone and then later they will become a complete stranger. You will pass by them without a word. Without a single acknowledging look. This person, who once knew you so well, who once knew your fears, your desires, your dreams, your past, is now walking right past you, seeing right through you."

2010-09-12T21:34:00.003+08:00

in the past, we studied for our parents.
because they want us to enter uni.

now we are in the uni,
and we need to study for the sake of ourselves. well and of cuz for our parents too.

"booking in" tonight into hall and yucks i still dislike this feelings. :(

2010-09-10T20:39:00.003+08:00

i think i have not been so hardworking before.

2nd week of sch and I'm studying or doing tutorial every day.
It seems no life.
But then, there's really no time to waste.

Haiz, will 3 years pass quickly.
i seriously hate studying.

and all i wish now is to have my durians puffs/cakes and a nice coffee and sitting by the lawn and relax.

:(

2010-09-05T21:17:00.001+08:00

sickly weekends for me.

i just hope this week i will not be feeling depressed.
but haiz, i will be away from home :(

2010-09-03T23:03:00.002+08:00

it's finally the end of 1st week.
it was really a TERRIBLE WEEK for me.
Guess next week will not be any better.

right now, i can only look forward to small little happy things to distract me away.
may 2015 comes soon.

2010-09-01T19:26:00.004+08:00

must be the new environment.
that causes me to feel so moody and emotional and depressed these few days.
everyone is saying i will get used to it soon. i have to hang on there. 1st two weeks will be hard but i will soon adapt to it.
but still, that feelings still linger there, clinging onto me. it feels really terrible.
this transition, adjusting period is so hard.
suddenly i feel so so weak, so fragile.
maybe i really need a pillar of support... ...

i need someone to talk me out.

day #3: i still dislike sch.

2010-08-30T22:49:00.003+08:00

either im too attached to them.
or they are really such nice people to be with.

i choose both.

dislike sch.
wants to watch step up 3.

2010-08-28T23:28:00.006+08:00

27 Aug FRIDAY
Farewell meal at Geylang.
really a heavenly dinner.
altho that place seems quite old.

After which, went for starbucks with Godfather at Kallang Leisure Park.
Another long good chat with him makes me feel better.
You indeed help me a alot!! =D

CRAB NOODLE!

FROG LEGS IN CHICKEN ESSENCE!
WAH SUPER SUPER NICE AR!!!

GARLIC PRAWNS

TASTY CAI LAN

REALLY A BIG THANK YOU TO BOTH OF YOU =)

Farewell lunch at Classique Hotel with Colleagues at Classique Hotel.

20 Aug FRIDAY
The pictures below were taken last Fri, to celebrate Harta's and Edward's Birthdays.

Infocomm Department (NCS Colleagues + 3 IDA SPM) MINUS NCS TSM

Chong Kin (extreme left) is a VERY FUNNY PERSON! Even tho he is a vegetarian, but the way he speaks. HE FLIPPED THE TABLE OVER AT THE MEETING!
WAH POWER!

That's Harta (left) and Aloyshire Cousin (right).
Harta is a very cute and innocent friend to talk with.
Cousin joined PA 2 months ago, however it seems like i have known him for 2 years.

13 Aug FRIDAY
Everyone was in red that day, to welcome the PA torch bearers.
Off the whole morning.
It was a very hot morning. Fanning ourselves with the clappers, looking at them squatting like squatters, LOOKING AT GALS!, RECOMMENDING cousin to No 1 and GOOD BUFFET after that. HAHA

I will definitely miss these two a lot.
We have been spending time together for the last 2 months.
Bringing laughter and reducing each other stress.
Both of you have definitely taught me and give me a lot of views of LIFE.
Random coffee breaks, random walk over and sentimentals three of us share.
Guess everything I wanted to convey was already written in that letter.

TILL WE MEET AGAIN COUSIN AND GODPA!

Aloy: Bro, are you free on any of the days in Sept?
PL: I may be cheap, But im definitely not FREE!
Aloy: Okay Bro, i phrased it wrongly, so are you available on any of the days in Sept?
PL: I'm Sorry bro, i'm no longer available. i have a wife and two kids!

2010-08-28T00:28:00.002+08:00

and so.. it's the last day work at PA.
i was still feeling very happy and excited in the morning.
however as the hour hand ticks by, i suddenly feel so reluctant to leave.
yes i may not like that place there, the boss there, there was even one time when i really want to quit.
but things start to change for the better. i get to know nice colleagues. and slowly from colleagues to friends. Even when i was very frustrated at work, there will always be people around me to talk and joke with.

thanks jasper for being my running companion for the past few months.
thanks harta for being so cute and fun to talk with.
thanks edward kevin hu wei chin que cheong.
thanks joanne and linda for being so friendly and helpful.
thanks aloyshire cousin for being there.
and lastly thanks godfather for being my old friend.
thanks for that farewell meal. thanks for that gift.

i have got many things to say. however when i decided to type them out, i'm lost for words.

thanks all for being part of my life.
may we meet again =)

haiz. super emotional now.
guess i will really miss all of you there at pa.

2010-08-23T12:11:00.002+08:00

Last week at work.
Mixed feeling.
Feeling happy with how everything is now, but yet reluctant to go back to sch.
Gonna miss that two much.

AND YEAH i cant contain my happiness :D:D:D:D:D

2010-08-19T17:23:00.003+08:00

on leave ytd.

and was so happy to hear from them today that it felt weird not to have me around.
haha they are starting to feel the effect of me leaving. HAHAHAHAHA

2010-08-16T21:14:00.002+08:00

kids nowadays... ...* based on a true story

8 year old boy: Daddy Mummy! i packed my bag very quickly and rushed out of the school today!
Parents: why and where are you rushing to??
8 year old boy: The girl i fancy is dismissing earlier today. so i rushed out to keep in pace with her. so that i will have the chance to walk home tgt with her.
Parents: =.= *faint!

so cute sia the boy!

2010-08-16T09:59:00.001+08:00

Last week had been a good week.
A fun and laughter filled week.

Made two older friends recently. And haha, we have no generation gaps at all.
Coffee breaks, random talks, walking over to disturb, suaning each other.
Altho they always bully me, but somehow I still find encouragement in their words. They spur me on. =)

However happy moments are short-lived.

2 more weeks to sch start. Hmmm…

2010-08-12T12:53:00.000+08:00

Reflection

Reflect on what you have done daily… So that you can grow from strength to strength, day by day.

And yea, I have been reflecting quite a lot lately.
Your words kind of spur me on.

2010-08-07T02:00:00.004+08:00

it's 2am in the morning.
i cannot get to sleep.
many things are running in my mind now.

when scm left, i had this feeling.
now i'm having this feeling again.

2010-08-04T11:00:00.001+08:00

666th post.

i smell and taste blood in my throat.
and my nose has been very sensitive these days.

2010-08-03T16:57:00.000+08:00

Be courteous to all, but intimate with few, and let those few be well tried before you give them your confidence. True friendship is a plant of slow growth, and must undergo and withstand the shocks of adversity before it is entitled to the appellation.

2010-08-02T17:45:00.002+08:00

start of aug.
i dont look forward to sch at all.
maybe im the only one who isnt excited about going to sch.

2010-08-01T00:16:00.005+08:00

went prawning for the first time
only managed to catch 2 in 1 hour.
however it was fun tho ;)
they were so afraid of touching the prawn and even tried to take out the hook carefully off the prawn to not let it hurt badly. HAHA should have see their reactions!

and i caught the BIG ONE! the small one by wc and sw.

RECOMMENDATION: ALMOND BEANCURD AT OLD AIRPORT ROAD HAWKER CENTRE! =D.

thumbs up!

2010-07-30T15:02:00.001+08:00

some people are just so irritating and whenever they talk they just pissed you off.

2010-07-23T21:08:00.000+08:00

2010-07-22T15:36:00.001+08:00

wooo interesting! haha

人世间有种情感叫“喜欢”，另一种叫“爱”。

爱是他在的时候，眼睛里只有他一人；他不在的时候，一切都带有他的影子。
　　喜欢是在深夜看书时突然想起他，想象他现在做什么，心里漾起一阵轻飘飘的温暖，却从不主动给他打电话。几分钟后，注意力又重新被书中的情节吸引!
　　爱是在寂寞的夜里，思念如潮水般涌来，手里捧着书却怎么也看不进去，心里惦记着他此时是否还在加班，吃没吃晚饭，是不是如自己想着他一般想着自己。
　　喜欢是和他讨论问题争的面红耳赤，各不相让，在他面前像个刺猬一样从不认输，但在心里却早已暗暗佩服他的见地他的才华。
　　爱是希望他和自己步调一致，和自己心灵相通，他无心说的一句玩笑话也能让自己顷刻情绪低落甚至眼泪汪汪。在他面前，自己是从不设防的。
　　喜欢是出门在外给他发个短信，告诉他这边的天气很好，然后把手机关掉，独自在异地疯玩一个星期，晒成一个黑人后突然出现在他面前吓他一跳。
　　爱是无论到哪都希望有他陪伴。可以站在海边给他打手机，让他听听海浪的声音；也可以因为在异乡的街道上看到一个酷似他的背影而愣在原地久久不动。
　　喜欢是他出差前简单的道一声“一路平安”，看着他离去的背影，心中有一点不舍，却什么也不说，只是默默等待他归来的消息。
　　爱是他临出差前千叮咛万嘱咐，往他的背包里塞满衣服和食物，在车站要等到火车开走才肯离开。并且在他走后的日子里天天心神不定，一遍遍的祈祷他能够平安归来。
　　喜欢是在受伤的时候，不想让他看到自己脆弱的一面，在他面前把眼泪悄悄抹掉，转过头依然是一副快乐坚强的模样。
　　爱是在受委屈的时候，趴在他的胸前痛哭，没有伪装没有顾虑，把所有的烦恼统统告诉他，并渴望从他的怀抱中得到安慰。
　　喜欢是和他周末逛街逛累了一起吃肯德基；是在寒冷的冬天和他抢一杯热咖啡；是和他并肩走在街上中间始终隔着半米的距离；是陪他一起在电脑前打游戏两个人笑的像个孩子。
　　爱是周末利用半天时间亲手做出几道好菜满足的看他吃下去；是在寒冷的冬天不断为他的咖啡杯里续上热水；是和他走在街上任由他紧紧挽着自己的手；是在他旁边安静着做着，幸福地看着他在电脑前工作时专心的样子。
　　喜欢是听他讲自己童年的趣事，然后哈哈大笑，心中涌起一阵莫名的感动。
　　爱是听他将自己童年的趣事，然后微微一笑，心中更加怜惜眼前这个曾经如此调皮捣蛋的男人。喜欢是在楼道里碰上他，愉快的和他打声招呼，再简单寒暄几句，擦肩而过的时候看见了窗外明媚的阳光，心情无端好了起来。
　　爱是在楼道了看见他，脸上装出一副毫不在乎的表情，但在擦肩而过时细心感受身边颤动的空气，于是忍不住回头望一眼。
　　喜欢是看到他和另一个女孩牵手走过，心里有一点点疼，但很快会冲着朝阳重新扬起笑脸。
　　爱是输不起的游戏，付出全部以后，留下的可能仅仅是刻在心底的一道伤痕。
　　喜欢一个人是想要他是自己的，所以，可以喜欢很多人，想要很多人都是自己的。
　　爱是明明离不开他，却要不得不放弃他，因为他要的幸福，也许我给不了。不敢霸占他，希望看他找到幸福，即使那份幸福不是跟我分享的。
　　喜欢是，希望寂寞的时候，无聊的时候，伤感的时候，找个人说说话。
　　爱是，在任何时候都想跟他分享，快乐的时候甚至希望把所有快乐都给了他。
　　喜欢是，在很久很久没联络的时候，接到他的电话，然后笑着听他说话。
　　爱是，在几天没有联络的时候，着急得的打电话给他，然后忍住眼泪笑一笑。
　　喜欢，只有不在一起的时候，才惦记着对方。
　　爱，是哪怕是在一起，每一秒钟也都在思念他。
　　喜欢一个人，多数许多朋友，也会觉得快乐。
　　爱一个人，是多一个人，都会享受的两个人的世界。
　　喜欢一个人，是甜腻的。爱一个人，是苦尽甘来的。
　　喜欢一个人，在一起的时候会很开心。
　　爱一个人，不在一起的时候，会莫名的失落。
　　喜欢一个人，你不会想到你们的将来。
　　爱一个人，你们常常在一起憧憬明天。
　　喜欢一个人，在一起的时候永远是欢乐。
　　爱一个人，你会常常流泪。
　　喜欢一个人，当你们好久不见，你会突然想起他。
　　爱一个人，当你们好久不见，你会天天想着他。
　　喜欢一个人，当你想起他，你会微微一笑。
　　爱一个人，当你想起他，你会对着天空发呆。
　　喜欢一个人，你会想他有了孩子，你一定会很喜欢。
　　爱一个人，会有一天，你突然很好奇：将来我们的孩子会是什么样子。
　　喜欢一个人就是希望大家都开心。
　　爱一个人希望他会更开心。
　　喜欢一个人，你要得只是今天。
　　爱一个人，你期望的是永远。
　　喜欢一个人，是看到了他的优点。
　　爱一个人，是包容了他的缺点。
　　当你站在你爱的人面前,你的心跳会加速。
　　但当你站在你喜欢的人面前,你只感到开心。
　　当你与你爱的人四目交投,你会害羞。
　　但当你与你喜欢的人四目交投,你只会微笑。
　　当你与你爱的人对话,你觉得难以启齿。
　　但当你和你喜欢的人对话,你可以畅所欲言。
　　当你爱的人哭,你会陪她一起哭。
　　但当你喜欢的人哭,你会技巧的安慰她.
　　当你不想再爱一个人,你要闭上眼睛并忍着泪水。
　　当你不想再喜欢一个人,你只要掩住双耳!
　　喜欢，是一种心情
　　爱，是一种感情
　　喜欢，是一种直觉
　　爱，是一种感觉
　　喜欢，可以停止
　　爱，没有休止
　　喜欢一个人，特别自然
　　爱一个人，特别坦然
　　喜欢一个人，有时候盼和他在一起
　　爱一个人，有时候怕和他在一起
　　喜欢一个人，不停的和他争执
　　爱一个人，不停的为他付出
　　喜欢一个人，希望他可以随时找到自己
　　爱一个人，希望可以随时找到他
　　喜欢一个人，总是为他而笑
　　爱一个人，总是为他而哭
　　喜欢，是执着
　　爱，是值得
　　喜欢就是喜欢，很简单
　　爱就是爱，很复杂
　　喜欢你，却不一定爱你
　　爱你，就一定很喜欢你
　　其实，喜欢和爱仅一步之遥
　　但，想要迈这一步
　　就看你
　　是喜欢迈这一步
　　还是爱迈这一步
　　喜欢是淡淡的爱，爱是深深的喜欢，
　　爱是一种依赖，是一种责任，是一种相互的依偎，
　　喜欢是一种淡淡的莫名的好感，是一种突然间的冲动，是一种闪在脑里的念头，爱是一种埋在心里的翻江倒海，是不可以用任何的喜欢来代替，是一种力量！
　　喜欢一个人，并不一定要爱他；但爱一个人的前提，却是一定要喜欢他。
　　喜欢很容易转变为爱，但爱过之后却很难再说喜欢,因为喜欢是宽容的；而爱，则是自私的。
　　喜欢是一种轻松而淡然的心态。但爱，却太沉重。
　　爱一但说出了口，就变成了一种誓言，一种承诺。" 执子之手，与之偕老"，短短的八个字里却要包含多少的风风雨雨！
　　山无陵，海枯竭，冬雷震震，乃敢与君绝！这便是爱了。
　　爱是把双刃剑，如果拔出，一个不小心，既伤了别人，也伤了自己。
　　"曾经沧海难为水，除却巫山不是云"，被爱所伤的人心中永远都有一道不会愈合的伤口。
　　在月朗星稀的夜晚，你思念着远方的他/她，如果心中只是一种淡淡的喜悦和温馨，那就是喜欢。
　　如果其中还有一份隐隐的疼痛，那便是爱。
　　同一个主题里，也有人回复说:"喜欢是淡淡的爱，爱是深深的喜欢。"-
　　喜欢的人没有限,可以很多个同时存在，但是爱不同....爱....就只能爱一个了,并且死心塌地得爱。
　　喜欢像是荡秋千，一个人可以自得其乐。
　　爱是跷跷板，必须要两个人一起，享受甜蜜和快乐。
　　你找到和你一起玩跷跷板的人了吗?

2010-07-22T00:42:00.001+08:00

quote of the day:

"We did not change as we grew older; we just became more clearly ourselves."

2010-07-17T22:17:00.003+08:00

SACHOOM - The Korean Dancisal was simply SPLENDID!
it's really worth watching it ;)

esp theatre!

the 3 main leads. from left to right we have bin, sun and jun.
sun is really so HOT!

bin and i HAHAHA!

muhd with the female dancers! he likes the short hair one!

me and the funny host

reflection at helix bridge

wants more of such!

2010-07-16T10:51:00.001+08:00

good reviews about INCEPTION!

anyone?? :D

2010-07-15T11:12:00.004+08:00

有好多事情只是一线之差

譬如。。。。。。

內心的天使与魔鬼，往往只是一线之差

社会和真相之间，只是一线之差

爱恨之间，只是一线之差

爱情和友情之间，只是一线之差

选择与放弃，只是一线之差

选择与逃避，只是一线只差

生和死，只是一线之差

my heart is calling out to you.