today is thur... finally common test over.. haha... over e moon ah.. but results i tink gonna sux... wahahaha... yesterday, i asked nif to ask him wthether cn he b me god-bro not.. hanif told him bt he nv say anything.. den i gg for my eng lessons.. i saw him.. he shouted my name n waved at me.. haha.,.. i smiled n waved back.. den he came out n asked me y ui wan him be my bro.. i said cuz i wan to gif up... he gave a weird ans.. he asked me not to gif up...
my relationship wif taufiq ended yesterday.. 21st feb... or rather it ended a mth ago... it's all wishful tinking on my part all along.. nif told me e truth yesterday.. he said taufiq told em he already got no more feelings for me le bt hanif told me he dun wan me to get hurt so nv tell me face to face n aso dun wan me to noe abt it... all e while.. i haf been a fool... a idiot... these few wks he gave me e wrong signals.. he gave me hopes but in e end he took em away.. well it's my fault wat.. who asked me so "Zi Zuo Duo Qing".. to say e truth, i was really sad.. but i itnk it is tym to let go.. to gif up... hanfi can realli undastan me.. he knew it's goona b v.diff 4 me to 4gt him jus lyk tat...i juz feel so...so "awkward".. care so much 4 hm.. tink abt him when he had actually no more feelin for me le.. so i tink it's tym to let go... 21st feb
today... tuesday.. when i saw him.. i nv avoid... i juz gave a weak smile .. dun feel lyk toking to him nor even look at him... stress..!!
monday..i could not sleep last nite, kept tinking of him.... kept tinking of wat to say or asked when i saw him... yes! i did saw him.. i was happy... however he was walkin wif henry.. den tok to zahirah.. he oni came to tok to me when zahirah walked up e stairs... i asked him who was e gal who was similar to me...e gal was wei qi... ya i agreed wif nif.. she was really pretty... taufiq asked me whther i jealous izzit.. haha... lol... after recess, he was in my class when i gg back to class to take my amaths thingy.. he walked wif me.. he took me foolscap.. but of cuz he returned me... he said he nose bleed.. but i tink i his leg bleed...
sunday... i had a weird dream last nite.. or rather scary dream... i dreamt tat taufiq got a new stead.. his stead was fat but was pretty and cute... really... e envionment was weird.. of cuz.. DUH!! it's a dream... my gal... wahahha... me n my fren were sitting down n tokin when he walked towards us wif his stead, holding hands... i was so sad... i ran... he chased after me.. i ran so fast n far till i decided to stop n let him explained himself.. his stead caught up wif us... n he said " my gal, u go downstairs 1st".. i was crying n den i woke up..wahahaha.. tis dream suddenly reminded me of e period when his ex-stead was overseas n we were together... haha
thurs..today.. we seemed to be findin each other .. in e morning..me gg for hmt for e oral thingy... sianz.. lol... i saw him kip looking at me... i went toilet during eng.. saw him having his ce.. den we smiled at each other... lol.. den i asked him wat he doing... he doin photography... after sch.. we saw each other again.. he asked me where's hanif...at nite... i read e testimonial which he wrote for me again... this testimonial reali makes me very happy.. reminds me of alot of fun tym i had wif him.. memories are wat i left now.. cuz 2a'o4 can nv be dere again but it will be in e spirit of everyone.. cuz 2a'o4 rawks e most... rawks to e core... honestly, i miss miss liz.. mrs lim n rubina... lol.. i still rmb we were on e topic of translation.. den tat day hanif nearly told him i lyk him sia.. made me so scared but i of cuz kept calm la.. den ask him not to tink so much n concentrate on wat cher saying.. he cant concentrate lor.. kept tinking who was e gal who lyk him... his hands were shaking also.. in e end he dun undastan wat cher saying n in e end aso i taught him how to do de.. lol...
wed ...dam hapi today... saw him again on e way to class... he imitate e way i walked... so farny sia... he mentioned matt again... say wan to make him jealous... he said sumtink bt i din heard it but he dun wan to repeat!! lol... HUMPH!! lol... tink he was saying" i still lyk u so tat's y i walked up wif u".. lol... [no shame sia].. lol... he told me he actually got got me a present but broke... wa lao...i very sad sia.. wahahaha.. he wan made matt jealous so he asked me to hold his hand... DIAOZ.. fang zhen told me he was looking at me when i said hi to fann... assembly tym.. he was in front of me... wahahha... he sat wif rauhda... abit jealous la..wahahha... he shouted out my name.. wha lao.. malu sia...wahahaha... den after sch, he wanted to trip me but i kick back his leg.. lol..
monday...i today very happy....it's valentine day...when we were waiting for e a.maths remedial to end.. me n taufiq talked leh... we lyk flirt lyk tat.... he tok to me 1st... wat asked me to go home wif him... den i gave him those "diaoz" face la... wahaha... we sat n tok.. he made fun of me n matt again.. he said he wan to call matt over... i said if he walk over... i will leave... he said he will leave too... dunno wat he mean but i tink he is hinting me to walk hm wif him... i mean to e bus stop la... he wished me hapi valentine...
Saturday, February 12, 2005
friday... after sch we went to ppk's hse to play.. i rmb.. e last tymi went is 27.1o.o4.. after bazaar n after our water games.. tat day taufiq also went.. i had a very fun tym wif him tat day..
so at ppk's hse... my memories gate suddenly opened... i suddenly rmb wat happened on 19.1o.o4.. e day joel told taufiq i lyk him.. tat day i was dam happy... we played pictionery... haha... we teamed together... tt nite... he called me.. he said i was very attractive when we were playing... i also rmb wat happened on 27.1o.o4... we played.. watched him joked wif vanassa.. haha..
i rmb.. last tym... when we were toking on e fone... tink is b4 i went for my atc camp... he sang to me tis do re mi song: forget DO, forget RE but dun forget MI.. wahahhaa.. i tink it's lyk so farny.. haha... lol.....
Wednesday, February 09, 2005
tuesday.. CHINESE NEW YR'S EVE... yipee... me so hapi.. haha... wahahahahahha... in e morning, when gg for assembly, i saw taufiq outside my class, carrying his bag... haha.. so obviously is he purposely walked up here de lor.. hehe.. mayb he reallly meant wat he said:" i will meet u tml in ur class".. haha... mayb it's true.. wahahahhahaha.. lOL... when we sitting down in e hall, he saw me la... den i tink he purposely wan to sit behind me de... lol... haha... haha.. actually i quite lyk it.. i dun haf to look for him in e crowd... wahahahha.. after e concert.. got lion n dragon dance ma... so everyone separated la... haha.. i was on e corridor near e hall dere... he was opp me... at e 2nd floor dnt dere... haha.. actually i was lookin for him lor.. den i saw him... guess keith saw me n told him.. cuz i saw keith kept pointing here n dere at my direction... haha...
Tuesday, February 08, 2005
WahA... monDay... i saw taufiq when walkin to class... den we talked as he walked up to my class wif me... haha... of cuz we flirt la.. DUH!!... we always flirt whenever we saw each other... lOL... haha.. flirting is a form of socialisation btw e opp sex.. lol... den we both saw matt lookin at us.. haha.. den he kept making fun of me n him.. wth... haha... lyk tis.. wahahahaha... haha.. i told hanif abt wat matt msg me wat.. said wat i lose sumtink significent to me... where got lor... as if taufiq very impt to me lyk tat.. pls la.. me not tat despo de lor... diaoz... haha... den hanif told taufiq abt it la... den b4 gg for my a.maths lecture... taufiq came to me n asked me whether izzit true la... lol.. tat tym he sound very fierce.. really... not kidding... at nite i called him.. bt he said he doin hw, cant tok... sigh... sad lor.. bt he said he will meet me tml... haha.. rubbish lor...
Saturday, February 05, 2005
fri... lol.. yesterday after chem test... i saw him outside general off den he came to tok to me... he asked whether i noe abt matt lyking me.. i said yes... den he told me go take him.. pls la.. i dun lyk him lor... haha... den today...fri... i very happy.. cuz i pass my campcraft prac... today np dam slack lor.,.. so fun... haha.. den hanif told me taufiq wan him to tell me tat he will protect me from matt.. so sweet... he wan me to noe tat he cares abt me... haha... thx fro letting me know tat.. haha... haha... also... hanif asked me whether he shld go for training or parade.. i said trainin... den hanif also asked taufiq e same qn... haha... den his ans same as me.. also training.. hanif told him both of our ans e same n u noe wat he said? haha.. "gReaT miNd thInk alIke" .. haha... lol... Diaoz isn't it? haha...
wednesday... yesterday i told matt liking me to hanif... nif no i dun lyk him... den today during sexuality edu, hanif go tell tuafiq abt it... den his reaction was lyk: huh? matt lyk peizhen? oh no, i muz protect her from him..." so sweet isn't it? hehe... tat show he care abt me... haha... den hanif asked him whether he still lyk me not den he said he dunno.. when he saw me, he lyk me... but when he did not see me.. he feel tat he dun lyk me.. haha.. same symptoms as me sia.. haha...