Saturday, September 17, 2011
Reality hits me, that she is really really gone.
Tml is the funeral. Yet the sadness is overwhelming me since today morning. The fact that the body lying in the coffin now will be gone in less than 24 hours later.
Yeah I know its all part and parcel of life. People come people go.
Since young, I went over to granny's house weekly for dinner. Every Friday. Then subsequently. Every Saturday. As I grow older, I don't go up to her house that often anymore, because I have other activities. But I always make sure I go back at least once a month.
I always felt that my granny cooked well. I always enjoyed my meals. Even simple dishes such as eggs and a plate of cai lan, i always find them tasty.
During occasions such as Chinese New Year, all the Chinese festivals that we gathered around and my granny's birthday, there will always be curry chicken, roast duck, white chicken, fish, mushroom and broccoli, chicken wings, desserts and etc. Oh, there's always SOUP for every meal. Yeah soup which I really love. Granny made good bak zhang, yam kueh and etc.
I remember she walked over to my house weekly when I was younger, bringing cakes and pastries over for my family to eat. She was really healthy back then. Every morning she will go down for exercise with the old people, mingled around the neighborhood.
It was only a few years back, I guess about 4/5 years back. She started falling sick. Heart's artery blockage, kidney problem, diabetes, falling down accidentally. The sight of her with so many needles poking around, huge scary machines around that I realized my granny was really old. She was about 90 already. My heart aches to see her getting thinner and thinner day by day.
The frequency of her admitted into the hospital increases over the years. Just like this year, I have totally lost count. The last time I saw her at the hospital, she Still talked alot. But things suddenly got worse when she was discharged and sent home. The doctor told us to be prepared. That she no longer need to come to the hospital anymore. That was two weeks ago.
One week ago. I went over to visit her. Tears just flow when I saw her. My grandmother, from a healthy old lady to a sick old dying patient.
And now she is lying there. In that coffin. Soon, really soon. She will really really be gone.
People aged and die.
The recollection of memories of my grandmother...
You will be missed and remembered.
Wednesday, September 14, 2011
2011年9月14号。。。
尽管这一天迟早会到来，尽管心里也做好了准备，但当我早上接到妹妹的简讯时，我还是掉泪了。
虽然我并不是一个很孝顺的孙女，虽然我没法看到您的最后一面，但是我想让您知道您是我尊敬与爱护的奶奶。
再见了奶奶。
谢谢您这二十一年来的爱戴。
谢谢您没有忘记我们是谁。
谢谢您还认得我们。
安息吧，奶奶。
Tuesday, September 13, 2011
hee here are some photos i took from the SHINee World Concert
very little photos. but more videos!
that's Minho singing :)
I went for my first ever concert last sat at the Indoor Stadium !
The SHINee World First Concert in SG!
Superb! Awesome! So High!
Lol. It was really good atmosphere.
I lost my voice in the midst of screaming. :)
It makes me forget unhappy things :)
It still seem like a dream to me. That I did really see those PRETTY BOYS whom I always see on TV. Hee I secretly video-ed half of the concert. Which allow me to watch them again and again. :)
AH SO PRETTY AND FLAWLESS BOYS ><
Yeah I like small boys :D