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Friday, December 31, 2010

it's 31st Dec 2010. So i'm going to reflect and summaries my 365 days of 2010.

the organization of the contents will be a little messy and jumbled up.
because i'm just going to type whatever that comes into my mind.

2010 can be divided into 3 major parts: End of Poly, Work, Start of Uni
End of Poly: like finally, the pioneer batch of DEWT had finally graduated. We waited long for this day to come. All of us suddenly got closer as the end drew nearer. I still remember some of us went for Mac Breakfast one fine morning ( back in those days, none of us will really meet up for breakfast because we all want to sleep later! ). Still remember that last day of school, most of us dressed up to take photos around the school. From LT3A classrooms to Foodcourt 1 to our Hyd Lab with Faye and Burhan - (our beloved lab tech). We ordered Pizza for lunch. Faye even put up the "The Party's Here" banner up to welcome us. We had our last exam, and i'm sure everyone will not ever forget Cedric RUNNING AND SCREAMING "IT'S OVER!" outside the exam hall. I would say that the 1 day Kukup Trip was the last overseas trip as a class. We all parted ways after that, only to meet again on SP Graduation Day. That sentimental Graduation Speech from Kenneth Chen (our 150 000th grad) which touched most of the DEWT heart. Argh, I'm feeling nostalgic for my poly days. Poly days were tough but we enjoyed the process :)

Work: worked as a temp admin in NCS Pte Ltd at People's Association- IT Department. I spent about 6 months in there and forged close friendships and bonds with people. I'm glad to have work over there. Maybe because i'm only a temp, but i really love working there. Because of the nice people surrounding me. I started drinking Gong Cha after Jasper intro it to us using his free Citysquare Vouchers. and since then, i'm a fan of GONG CHA (okay this is random). there might be days when i felt really irritated and frustrated with my boss and wanted to quit at that moment, but now i reflected about it, that's how working life is all about, isnt it? i always look forward to lunch time because i can eat (i'm always hungry when im working) and i like listening to my colleagues' jokes and conversation. Edward enjoys asking the "million dollars questions", while Wei Chin, Kevin Hu and Edward forever talking about DOTA and how Wei Chin want to take part in DOTA competitions, buy a condo next to citysquare, put a food conveyor in the middle serving MACDONALDS and placed 5 vs 5 PC at the side to play DOTA. How that lady from opp (wah i suddenly cannot rmb her name) loves to pester Jasper to help her and i always end up laughing at him. WORLD CUP PERIOD: how godpa loves to ask me about which team will win and scolded me for thinking that i'm Paul the Octupus and asking me for money when the team lost. How my ex boss enjoyed predicting the results for each game. How i tahan that one month watching almost 80% of the matches with Jasper. so so many happy memories inside :)

Start of Uni: it's like a nightmare comes true. The stressed faced since Day 1. How i dislike school and hall. How i look forward to small happy things to make me forget about school temporary. Crazy lecturers, speak like choo-choo-train lecturers and perverted lecturers. Food in school is really cmi but for the sake of my stomach, i cannot starve myself to death. NTU is a super ulu place that birds also dont want to lay their eggs there. so out of civilisation!

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2010 is the most depressing year in my whole 20 years of life.
Heartbreak, depression, frustration, irritation and emo-ness.
(*before i start on this, i want to make it clear that i'm not pinpointing or blaming anyone or whatsoever)

i would say that the first 6 months of 2010 was really tough for me. i even felt that i have split personality and suffer from depression at times. i really had a hard time letting go of A.
i wonder how many pails of tears i had shed. My heart aches whenever i recalled some of the incidents. My tears will flow whenever i hear songs that i can relate to.
From a cheerful person, i changed to an anti-social person and enjoys being alone. i dislike company. I refused to listen to any of my friends. To sort out my confused mind, i will always go for intense swimming or running. Every time when i thought that i was completely over A, some things will occur and I will start to breakdown again.
Ppl asked me why, but i never really answer them, because love is an uncontrollable and irrational feelings. It's totally unpredictable. Even i get frustrated and irritated at myself whenever i broke down because of A. Most of the time at work, i will always keep myself occupied to escape from this heart and mind torture (yeah Jasper always said I'm a sadist because I love to torture myself). However, once i got home, i started feeling emo again.
I hate this. I hate myself for being so fragile and emotional at times. But i really could not control my own feelings. i only decided to get over A in Aug, after i had a heart to heart talk with Godpa. But i soon realized that once i left PA, those sad memories still cont to invade me.
School started, i felt depressed again. i got even more depressed because i hate school and hall so much, to the point that i can even shed tears on train rides to school. The emo-ness was too overwhelming. I always look forward to going home, and only realized how impt family is. Because they will always be the one staying by you no matter what happen.

Well i think it's just a transition period for me. Because i get too comfortable with my previous environment, it's hard to let go. And i feel better now, after i found a good friend that i can stick with for the next 2.5 semesters. ;)

Happy moments are always short-lived. i think i can count the number of incidents/events that i really feel happy about: Taiwan Trip with Ailing, SP Graduation Day, World Cup Period, Last two months in PA, Getting class 3 License. oh how sad is my 2010! =)

Another Day - SM the Ballad. (Yeah 1st of Jan 2011 is just another day)

Friday, December 31, 2010 dancing in the moonlight

Wednesday, December 29, 2010

RASHES ON MY FACE! :(

Haiz i dont know whether is it the alcohol effect or because of the makeup from the makeup workshop.

Hmm. let me analyse it.
I dont think it's really alcohol effects because the previous time i drank, nothing happened.
oh after putting on the makeup, my forehead starts to have some redness and i only realized all the clustered red dots after removing the makeup from my face.
so maybe i'm allergic to "make up for ever" products because when i use maybelline or silkygirl products, nothing happen. HAHA

so at the end of the day im blaming "make up for ever". HAHA

alright, at least i did learn some makeup basics from the workshop.

anyway it was a good day out with the trinity. At first i thought we dont have much topics to talk about, afterall the last time we met was SP Graduation in May and that we were also from different cliques, but it all turned out fine :)

Went The Loof with the gals at night. and it's really a quiet and fine place for catch up and gathering. will recommend that place next time :)

Had Fresh Kiwi Martini.
1st glass: machiam drinking Kiwi Juice. Sweet and Sour!
2nd glass: finally there's alcohol taste.

and i like the chicken wings! =)

Miss You - SM the Ballad

Wednesday, December 29, 2010 dancing in the moonlight

Tuesday, December 28, 2010

Lover's Concerto
A song many would play on their wedding.
A familiar tune that we always hear on the piano. But i guess many dont really know the lyrics.
Finally got to know the lyrics after going partyworld with my cousins.
it's really a sweet and serene song.
so here goes the lyrics:

How gentle is the rain
That falls softly on the meadow
Birds high up in the trees
Serenade the clouds with their melody

Oh! See there beyond the hills
The bright colors of the rainbow
Some magic from above
Made this day for us
Just to fall in love

You hold me in your arms
And say once again you love me
And if your love is true
Everything will be just as wonderful

Now, I belong to you
From this day until forever
Just love me tenderly
And I'll give to you
Every part of me

Oh! Don't ever make me cry
Through long lonely nights without love
Be always true to me
Keep this day in your heart eternally

You hold me in your arms
And say once again you love me
And if your love is true
Everything will be just as wonderful

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=0_wmS9DleJ4&feature=related

=) =)

Tuesday, December 28, 2010 dancing in the moonlight

Sunday, December 26, 2010

CHRISTMAS IS OVER!

christmas party at aunt's house every year never fail to lift up my moods
so it's JAPANESE THEME this year.
JAPANESE FOOD!
cold noodles tempura sushi.. thinking about it now makes me hungry again. ROAR =)

this is really really nice.. so gonna get it and cooked for myself this holidays again.

nephew Rion came over at night.
and baby boy caught all of our attention at once.
sadly he did not like ppl to carry him.
but still managed to get a few shots with him!
so cute!. SHUHUAN FASTER GO GIVE BIRTH AND LET ME PLAY WITH YOUR KIDS!
i be their godma. HAHAHA

group photo with Rion. he was about to cry already.

KISSING TIGGER!

it seems like im taking advantage of a little boy.
but I'M NOT! he saw me and pouted out his lips.
SO CUTE! TELL ME HOW NOT TO KISS HIM.

here are some photos from the celebration:

with my sisters

with cousins.

decided to go partyworld after the celebration since we were all still high.
(i think im the highest since i pulped down dont know how many cups of alcohol in that few minutes cuz we were rushing to go off)

first time out in the night with my cousins.
basically screaming and singing and dancing in the room.

now i cant wait for our next USS Hollywood night on 15th Jan :)

Please take care of my boyfriend - Younha

Sunday, December 26, 2010 dancing in the moonlight

Saturday, December 25, 2010

MERRY 2010 CHRISTMAS TO ALL! =D
it's time for candies chocolate and FOOD and the season to get FAT!

im in the mood to sing xmas song what should i sing?

Silent Night? NAH too emo.
Last Christmas? sang before alr.

HAHA okay dunno what im talking already.

WOOHOO! DRINK DRINK DRINK! =X

Saturday, December 25, 2010 dancing in the moonlight

Thursday, December 23, 2010

it's the drinking season! HAHA :)

Thursday, December 23, 2010 dancing in the moonlight

Wednesday, December 22, 2010

BUSY HOLIDAYS!

hahaha im so so busy now... busy going out!
okay my dec is packed :)

21st dec: out with 4b classmates. GOH SIEW MAI WU SHUHUAN BAI ZHIPENG JONK AND GAVIN LOW

22nd dec: off to johor for one day trip with family

23rd dec: out with XZL

24th dec: home sweet home :) SWIMMING/RUNNING

25th dec: xmas party cum sis's birthday celebration at aunt's place. maybe out for k overnight with cousins! ;)

26th dec: SWIMMING/ RUNNING

27th dec: swimming/ running

28th dec: makeup lessons with the trinity & seafood dinner with shuhuan kenneth and siew mai!

29th dec: swimming/running

30th dec: FEASTING on daddy's birthday!

31st dec: out with tQ for his belated birthday treat and mayb fireworks for countdown.

END OF 2010! =D

beautiful restriction by SNSD is nice :)

Wednesday, December 22, 2010 dancing in the moonlight

Friday, December 17, 2010

haiz i dunno!

hope not.

Friday, December 17, 2010 dancing in the moonlight

Sunday, December 12, 2010

1 week more to END OF EXAMS! :)

altho i'm getting tired already, but still i have to hang on!

Sunday, December 12, 2010 dancing in the moonlight

Saturday, December 04, 2010

1 more week to exams!!! =D

and im having irregular sleeping hours now :)
all thanks to uni.

i'll be back! ~~

Saturday, December 04, 2010 dancing in the moonlight