"Nothing hurts more than realizing they meant everything to you, but you meant nothing to them."
so so true isn't it?
i feel sadness.
i feel anger.
i feel sour.
i feel happiness.
he has given me the mixture of all the emotions.
he can bring me up so high up a mountain but yet kick me down deep into the trenches.
sometimes i really do not know where do i stand in his heart.
or do i even have a status in the first time.
the ignorance. the dont-have-to-bother face. the tone. the feelings.
i hate it!
i can feel so happy next to him and once the minute hand spins one round, im back to depression, thinking why he cannot do that for me. why he cannot go that extra mile for me.
i can cry of sorrow over him.
i can even shed tears of anger, thinking about the unfair treatment im receiving.
he is turning me round and round and round. im like a lost ant in a maze.
the walls are too high for me. to the maze, im just a minute little animal.
trying to break myself free from everything.
i try to find peace within myself.
i convince myself nothing bad will be happening.
i find excuses for him to make myself feel better.
i have given him almost everything.
my heart my soul my emotions are within his control.
as and when he likes.. he can just pressed the "power on" button on the remote control and talks to me.
he can also switched to other channels and make me feel jealous.
he can also switched off the television and ignore me totally.
"It's hard to pretend you love someone when you don't, but it's harder to pretend that you don't love someone when you really do. "
Saturday, September 19, 2009
the airport is definitely a place full of emotions.
真的是悲欢离合，感触良多。
unknowingly, you will be in tears when you see others bidding their goodbyes.
Friday, September 18, 2009
a moment of folly.
an apologetic smile
Thursday, September 17, 2009
"The Proposal" is NICE =D
and i think that Ryan Reynolds is so good looking when he is in his wedding suit. HAHAHA!
working at WWS now.
have to get a table and 4 chairs done before sch reopens.
and here are some cute pictures! ;)
Saturday, September 12, 2009
i like these 2 tees from Forever 21! =D
but i wonder if they can be found in Sg Stores.
If anyone of you, by any chance see these two shirts, INFORM ME! =) =)
Friday, September 11, 2009
hmmm i think im slow at diffentiating where is my left and right!
Sunday, September 06, 2009
hmmm im craving for the followings:
- Swedish meatballs from IKEA
- Chicken Chop/ Cutlet from IKEA
- Spaghetti from PIZZA HUT! (sudden craving after watching the advertisement)
- Steaks from JACK'S PLACE
and im screaming for ICE CREAM! =D
Saturday, September 05, 2009
it has been a miserably- sick week for me.
Thursday, September 03, 2009
i had my first driving lesson today! =D
so fun and exciting!