i dont understand why i have to breakdown in public.
i was talking to him randomly and happily. when we came to the topic again.
he said he wants to have a gf. but he cannot commit.
so i asked him why.
because he IS IN LOVE WITH ANOTHER GIRL.
because he cannot love me. because his heart is not with me.
oh great. so i misunderstood everything since the last time i confessed to him.. (21st Jan)
HE CANNOT COMMMIT BECAUSE HE IS IN LOVE WITH ANOTHER GIRL.
oh damn. im so stupid. im so dumb. i allowed myself to get involve in this MISERABLE LOVE TRIANGLE.
so i asked him. if the other party was to accept him. he will be ready.
OH PZ YOU ARE SO STUPID. SO DUMB. YOU SHOULD GO WASH YOUR BRAIN AND DAMN BLIND YOUR EYES.
FOR BEING DEAF AND BEING BLIND AND BEING STUPID NOW IS THE BEST WAY TO CONCEAL YOUR SADNESS.
MY HEART IS BLEEDING... PROFUSELY.
MY HEART ACHES
MY HEART IS BROKEN
MY HEART IS SHATTERED. INTO PIECES.
FALLEN PIECES.
I WANT TO CRY BUT I CANT SHED ANY TEARS NOW.
