it's 31st Dec 2010. So i'm going to reflect and summaries my 365 days of 2010.
the organization of the contents will be a little messy and jumbled up.
because i'm just going to type whatever that comes into my mind.
2010 can be divided into 3 major parts: End of Poly, Work, Start of Uni
End of Poly: like finally, the pioneer batch of DEWT had finally graduated. We waited long for this day to come. All of us suddenly got closer as the end drew nearer. I still remember some of us went for Mac Breakfast one fine morning ( back in those days, none of us will really meet up for breakfast because we all want to sleep later! ). Still remember that last day of school, most of us dressed up to take photos around the school. From LT3A classrooms to Foodcourt 1 to our Hyd Lab with Faye and Burhan - (our beloved lab tech). We ordered Pizza for lunch. Faye even put up the "The Party's Here" banner up to welcome us. We had our last exam, and i'm sure everyone will not ever forget Cedric RUNNING AND SCREAMING "IT'S OVER!" outside the exam hall. I would say that the 1 day Kukup Trip was the last overseas trip as a class. We all parted ways after that, only to meet again on SP Graduation Day. That sentimental Graduation Speech from Kenneth Chen (our 150 000th grad) which touched most of the DEWT heart. Argh,
I'm feeling nostalgic for my poly days. Poly days were tough but we enjoyed the process :)
Work: worked as a temp admin in NCS Pte Ltd at People's Association- IT Department. I spent about 6 months in there and forged close friendships and bonds with people. I'm glad to have work over there. Maybe because i'm only a temp, but i really love working there. Because of the nice people surrounding me. I started drinking Gong Cha after Jasper intro it to us using his free Citysquare Vouchers. and since then, i'm a fan of GONG CHA (okay this is random). there might be days when i felt really irritated and frustrated with my boss and wanted to quit at that moment, but now i reflected about it, that's how working life is all about, isnt it? i always look forward to lunch time because i can eat (i'm always hungry when im working) and i like listening to my colleagues' jokes and conversation. Edward enjoys asking the "million dollars questions", while Wei Chin, Kevin Hu and Edward forever talking about DOTA and how Wei Chin want to take part in DOTA competitions, buy a condo next to citysquare, put a food conveyor in the middle serving MACDONALDS and placed 5 vs 5 PC at the side to play DOTA. How that lady from opp (wah i suddenly cannot rmb her name) loves to pester Jasper to help her and i always end up laughing at him. WORLD CUP PERIOD: how godpa loves to ask me about which team will win and scolded me for thinking that i'm Paul the Octupus and asking me for money when the team lost. How my ex boss enjoyed predicting the results for each game. How i tahan that one month watching almost 80% of the matches with Jasper. so so many happy memories inside :)
Start of Uni: it's like a nightmare comes true. The stressed faced since Day 1. How i dislike school and hall. How i look forward to small happy things to make me forget about school temporary. Crazy lecturers, speak like choo-choo-train lecturers and perverted lecturers. Food in school is really cmi but for the sake of my stomach, i cannot starve myself to death. NTU is a super ulu place that birds also dont want to lay their eggs there. so out of civilisation!
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2010 is the most depressing year in my whole 20 years of life.
Heartbreak, depression, frustration, irritation and emo-ness.
(*before i start on this, i want to make it clear that i'm not pinpointing or blaming anyone or whatsoever)
i would say that the first 6 months of 2010 was really tough for me. i even felt that i have split personality and suffer from depression at times. i really had a hard time letting go of A.
i wonder how many pails of tears i had shed. My heart aches whenever i recalled some of the incidents. My tears will flow whenever i hear songs that i can relate to.
From a cheerful person, i changed to an anti-social person and enjoys being alone. i dislike company. I refused to listen to any of my friends. To sort out my confused mind, i will always go for intense swimming or running. Every time when i thought that i was completely over A, some things will occur and I will start to breakdown again.
Ppl asked me why, but i never really answer them, because love is an uncontrollable and irrational feelings. It's totally unpredictable. Even i get frustrated and irritated at myself whenever i broke down because of A. Most of the time at work, i will always keep myself occupied to escape from this heart and mind torture (yeah Jasper always said I'm a sadist because I love to torture myself). However, once i got home, i started feeling emo again.
I hate this. I hate myself for being so fragile and emotional at times. But i really could not control my own feelings. i only decided to get over A in Aug, after i had a heart to heart talk with Godpa. But i soon realized that once i left PA, those sad memories still cont to invade me.
School started, i felt depressed again. i got even more depressed because i hate school and hall so much, to the point that i can even shed tears on train rides to school. The emo-ness was too overwhelming. I always look forward to going home, and only realized how impt family is. Because they will always be the one staying by you no matter what happen.
Well i think it's just a transition period for me. Because i get too comfortable with my previous environment, it's hard to let go. And i feel better now, after i found a good friend that i can stick with for the next 2.5 semesters. ;)
Happy moments are always short-lived. i think i can count the number of incidents/events that i really feel happy about: Taiwan Trip with Ailing, SP Graduation Day, World Cup Period, Last two months in PA, Getting class 3 License. oh how sad is my 2010! =)
Another Day - SM the Ballad. (Yeah 1st of Jan 2011 is just another day)
